Words

Saw this, beautifully said!

"I don't know about you, but I'm happy being a boyfriend. I've been seeing the same girl for over a year now & honestly, I love it. Yeah, a lot of girls have stopped talking to me cause I'm taken, but you know what? I'm fine with it. I don't need to talk to a lot of girls cause I already have someone who actually cares. I mean, I wouldn't put myself in a relationship if I wasn't ready. What I'm trying to say is, guys, if you don't plan on being with a girl, don't put her through something she doesn't need to go through. If you can't give up talking to other girls or seeing other girls, don't waste her time when you're eventually just gonna tell her 'I'm not ready, I'm still young, I just wanna have fun' cause she's just gonna think you got what you wanted & now you're bored & making excuses. Be a man."

So very true

Let it Be

When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted, there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Realize

I think an important realization is that you will be fine, just as you are. You have God, friends and family. In life there is not much more you really need to feel loved, cherished, appreciated, adored, cared about, thankful for and blessed about. Life is really quite simple. Too many girls I see out there and guys who assume, life is not going to be super or great unless I have someone by my side. You do not need someone else to make you happy or content in your life. You just need you, friends, family and God... Honestly it is that simple and maybe it seems difficult but it is not, I promise. There will be bumps in the road but you can get over them, through them or jump over them, Gods bigger than all these problems, all these bumps in the road and your friends and family are there to support you all the way! Life is beautiful, you just need to love yourself more, encourage yourself and be more kind to yourself. This is coming from me, I am hard on myself. I honestly blame myself for much that goes wrong in my life, yet I am gonna work on it, I am not gonna say it will change but my life is my responsibility and with God, the friends I have and family I have everything I need. 

I am proud of myself for:

-Getting a job at Godiva.C: I love Godiva honestly I love it. I am so lucky to have been able to interview all my myself and get the job with my own words. I will work hard and do everything I am asked, I will ask questions and I will be smiling. Honestly a job is a huge gift and I got the job all by myself. I have every right to be very proud of little old me.C:
-Doing better this semester than last semester through more difficult times... This semester... My cat died, he was my best friend, always there, I know it sounds weird but this cat was there for me, my dog died too and I miss him too, my uncle passed away, a childhood friends little brother who was nothing but smiles and kindess, he was outgoing and really an inspirational young man died, and the same childhood friends dad died, he was also a kind man. Through all this and the inability to help her, except for prayers which are a lot I have been going to school and holding it together, yet sometimes I have fallen apart. Yet I am doing alright this semester through this.
-Working out here and there, hopefully will work out more though.C:
-Trying a new sport, volleyball even though I no longer am asked to go, which hurt but life is not always easy.
-Keeping my room clean.
-Sending letters, a new hobby.C:
Theres honestly more but this is what I am thinking of and thankful and proud of myself for in this moment. I am also very proud of my cousin today for graduating. He graduated from Iowa State University! He has an engineering degree and he has found God! What an inspiration. I love my cousin and even though since we live a few hours away I have not been able to see him as often as I would like, I have always looked up to Jordan. Hes been an inspiration and I am proud of him. I still remember growing up and going to his hockey games! He was great at hockey. He is great at being a cousin. I miss him and wish I could be there.

Right Now:

I wish I could talk to the young man in my life but when I am a little down I try and not talk to too many others about it because I am not one to want to bring others down even though I know they would want to hear about it. I am simply a bit down today, if you read this and you pray, please do. I have been down about the time it will take to graduate. I guess I kinda always thought it would take four years, two at Normandale then transfer to the University of Minnesota. That is not the case. I will be taking a few more than three or four years at Normandale. I have yet to finish my generals, I am almost done with my Emphasis in Multicultural Studies, I have yet to finish with my Creative Writing AFA and yet to decide if I want an AFA in Art. So it will take time. I am also really quite awful at algebra and I need to take some in order to be a teacher. I kinda wanna teach at a high school. I wanna inspire students, be proud of them for being in school, encourage them to do their best, tell them how great they truly are and be an English teacher or a counselor at a high school. Yet it will take some time. I think right now though, I am okay with it taking time, life is not meant to be rushed and we are all at our own place in life. I will try and stop comparing myself to others, I find that my mother compared me to others kids. Told me what her co-workers said about me and it brought me down, because of it, I started comparing myself to everyone else and that made life a little more difficult. I have to say that if you compare yourself because your parents have compared you, stop... Please. Its not the way to live and it will only make you feel horrible. You are a miracle, you are fabulous, hard working, worth this life, given this life as a gift because you are an inspiration. I have to tell myself this too because I forget. You are also loved by a god so good! I am too, we all are. So please today, love yourself! Be thankful, be blessed, let this life be positive, be good and optimistic. Were all on our own path and it does not have to take four years. 

Inspiration of Saturday

Marvelous words.C:

"The things you take for granted someone else is praying for."

More beautiful words.C:

"When I look back on my life, I see pain, mistakes, and heart ache. When I look in the mirror, I see strength, learned lessons, and pride in myself."

Saturday Songs

Today is my day to take it easy.C:

I am blasting some 102.1, which if you do not know is country music.:P

K102 Website.C:

I love country music, I also love Gary Allan! They had my song on this morning, I was like, oh my gosh, gotta boogie to that, so I danced about the living room, leaping through the air like a graceful dancer.. Okay, maybe not, but it was graceful to me lol, I danced about, excited about life! Right? Pumped to be alive. I was like Gary Allans song Every Storm Runs Out of Rain! Now my other songs on! Hunter Hayes song Wanted!

"Every Storm (Runs Out Of Rain)"

I saw you standing in the middle of the thunder and lightning
I know you're feeling like you just can't win, but you're trying
It's hard to keep on keepin' on, when you're being pushed around
Don't even know which way is up, just keep spinning down, 'round, down…

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

So hold your head up and tell yourself that there's something more
Walk out that door
Go find a new rose, don't be afraid of the thorns
'Cause we all have thorns
Just put your feet up to the edge, put your face in the wind
And when you fall back down, keep on rememberin'

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna run out of pain
It's gonna run out of sting
It's gonna leave you alone
It's gonna set you free
Set you free

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna set you free,
It's gonna run out of pain,
It's gonna set you free

You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
It makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green, girl I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
So put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too
I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah I, wanna make you feel wanted
Anyone can tell you you're pretty
And you get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the makeup
And I wanna show you what I see tonight
When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips

I wanna make you feel wanted
I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
'Cause Baby I, wanna make you feel wanted
As good as you make me feel
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your fairy tales
Better than your best dreams
You're more than everything I need
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted
And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
and I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And Never let you forget it
Yeah I, wanna make you feel wanted
Baby I, wanna make you feel wanted
'Cause you'll always be wanted

Uplift

"You Raise Me Up"

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

After a song like the last I posted, I want to post what I would listen to after relating, a more uplifting song to put the step back into my walk.C: A song like this, "You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban. Honestly he was on the radio this morning and I love his voice! I cannot get over how amazing he is. I hope you enjoy this song, whoever you are reading this, I hope it brings you up. When I listen to this song I think of God. God raises me up.C: I also want to say I might re-post inspiring songs. Have a marvelous weekend and a lovely night.C:

Lifehouse

                                                                      

 "Broken" by Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time

(This relates to how I feel about how I dwell on tomorrow a lot more often then I should, and it reminds me it is another thing to pray about.)
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts

(Doubts are natural, we all have them and I do not think theres anything wrong with doubts in life yet also think positive too, think about all the positive things in our lives and try not to doubt as much.)

I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

(I believe everyone has things in their lives which have caused damage, they are things to be sensitive about yet talk about and let others know about and as time goes on to move on from and to learn the lesson God wanted to be learned to help grow in strength and help us with obstacles later in life.)
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

(Somtimes I let things get to me and I feel like I am falling apart because of those things. I think this will always be a part of my life but another part of my life will be bringing myself up, praying, and knowing Gods there. I love my friends who accept that sometimes I do overreact about things yet they know I do not blame them about things. I appreciate those who are in my life and knowing I tend to be down about some things and yet I am good in the end. Friends who encourage and say positive things and are sympathetic, they help a lot, friends who ask you to talk about things. I have a few of them in my life, we all react to troubles differently and I am helped the most by those who ask to talk about it and hear me out and offer help. I am lucky to have friends like this who also pray.)
With a broken heart that's still beating

(I think all our hearts are a little broken from friends who left, who changed, family whose passed, friends who have passed.)
In the pain, there is healing

(Healing is from ourselves, from friends, from God, from famliy.)
In your name I find meaning

(In Gods name.C:)
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

(Holding on to the good too and the fact that God loves me.)
I'm barely holdin' on to you

(God, sometimes I feel like I am falling away but then I know, Gods always there and always with me no matter what.)

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

If you are curious, I will finish this.C: Right now I am watching the ending of Pride and Prejudice which is adorable.:P (The one with Keira Knightley of course!) I love the picture, the person filming did a marvelous job. This movie always makes me smile. When I am down I find things which make me smile or take my mind off why I am down. Right now what is best for me, these are tips I suppose if you are ever down... 

• Cry about it. Let it out.
• Vent about it, write in a blog or in a diary, talk to God or a close friend or family member who will listen.
• Listen to songs which relate to the emotions.
• Make yourself smile, do something which makes you smile.
• Take your mind off the thing bothering you.
• Turn off my phone so I can focus on bringing myself back up, praying and simply knowing theres a lot of good and positive in this world and in this life, a lot to be thankful for and blessed about, a lot to appreciate.
• Do not go on Facebook because it tends to make one dwell.
• Just take a day or a moment in the day for yourself. Love yourself more, figure things you like about yourself.

That is all I can think of for now, bear with me.:P I wrote the above to show I am relating to the song in my way, my thoughts on the lyrics. I think we all translate songs differently for our different experiences I feel music does help though. Have a beautiful day or night or afternoon and if you need to talk about something bothering you, let me know I will give out my email. I will hear you out and or give advice, let me know the most helpful reaction and I will try and be there for you.<3 i="i">

Algebra

I am having a me night... I will admit, I am no good at Algebra and the simple fact makes me angry out of hurt, out of despair, out of self doubt and out of sadness. I have tried to learn Algebra yet the topic is increasingly difficult for me and it does have the ability to bring me so down I will cry... I am having a good cry tonight. I wish I was great at algebra in all honesty, I wish it came naturally but I doubt it will. I want to reach out to all those others who have extreme difficulty with algebra, you are by all means never alone. I hear you and I share this inability to excel at algebra. In our lives we will find that some things bring us down, an inability to productively do a subject is common. I will hear you out if you need to talk about this topic, ask and I will give you my email. I know it can be depressing and hard when a topic does not come easy. For me it stands in the way of my goals and it will take time to finish specific courses of this subject in order to be what I am considering, which is extremely stressful for me. Something I will pray for and I will pray for those of you out there with troubles in life like this. Lets give it to God because God has a wonderful plan. My tips on the matter are:

• Not looking at it with such despair as I have been looking at it and if you are then as you have been looking at it. You are not at fault for not understanding the topic you struggle with.
• Think positively, find some positive in this matter, there is good and know that with every step you take you have supporters in your life, keep them close, Gods loving you, friends who you can talk to about this topic, family.
• Look for the friends who offer you help with the topics you struggle with, there will be some in every batch, not those who do not offer to help, yet understand people might be busy and some will not know how to help, others will also not be great at the topic. 
• Look for helping places, classes to help you catch up with where you should be.
• Look for tutoring.
• Find books which explain the topic.
• Look online for websites which help.
• Find videos which explain.
• Pray, and ask others to pray.
• Ask how others learned, ask for tips.

There will be ways of getting through this, I promise, I myself have to see this too. Currently I have my phone out and tissue, crying tends to help when we are down, I feel a bit relieved about things and a bit uplifted yet I believe tomorrow I am going to continue bringing myself back up, gonna pray too. You can do this and so can I.

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