Words

Saw this, beautifully said!

"I don't know about you, but I'm happy being a boyfriend. I've been seeing the same girl for over a year now & honestly, I love it. Yeah, a lot of girls have stopped talking to me cause I'm taken, but you know what? I'm fine with it. I don't need to talk to a lot of girls cause I already have someone who actually cares. I mean, I wouldn't put myself in a relationship if I wasn't ready. What I'm trying to say is, guys, if you don't plan on being with a girl, don't put her through something she doesn't need to go through. If you can't give up talking to other girls or seeing other girls, don't waste her time when you're eventually just gonna tell her 'I'm not ready, I'm still young, I just wanna have fun' cause she's just gonna think you got what you wanted & now you're bored & making excuses. Be a man."

So very true

Let it Be

When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted, there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Realize

I think an important realization is that you will be fine, just as you are. You have God, friends and family. In life there is not much more you really need to feel loved, cherished, appreciated, adored, cared about, thankful for and blessed about. Life is really quite simple. Too many girls I see out there and guys who assume, life is not going to be super or great unless I have someone by my side. You do not need someone else to make you happy or content in your life. You just need you, friends, family and God... Honestly it is that simple and maybe it seems difficult but it is not, I promise. There will be bumps in the road but you can get over them, through them or jump over them, Gods bigger than all these problems, all these bumps in the road and your friends and family are there to support you all the way! Life is beautiful, you just need to love yourself more, encourage yourself and be more kind to yourself. This is coming from me, I am hard on myself. I honestly blame myself for much that goes wrong in my life, yet I am gonna work on it, I am not gonna say it will change but my life is my responsibility and with God, the friends I have and family I have everything I need. 

I am proud of myself for:

-Getting a job at Godiva.C: I love Godiva honestly I love it. I am so lucky to have been able to interview all my myself and get the job with my own words. I will work hard and do everything I am asked, I will ask questions and I will be smiling. Honestly a job is a huge gift and I got the job all by myself. I have every right to be very proud of little old me.C:
-Doing better this semester than last semester through more difficult times... This semester... My cat died, he was my best friend, always there, I know it sounds weird but this cat was there for me, my dog died too and I miss him too, my uncle passed away, a childhood friends little brother who was nothing but smiles and kindess, he was outgoing and really an inspirational young man died, and the same childhood friends dad died, he was also a kind man. Through all this and the inability to help her, except for prayers which are a lot I have been going to school and holding it together, yet sometimes I have fallen apart. Yet I am doing alright this semester through this.
-Working out here and there, hopefully will work out more though.C:
-Trying a new sport, volleyball even though I no longer am asked to go, which hurt but life is not always easy.
-Keeping my room clean.
-Sending letters, a new hobby.C:
Theres honestly more but this is what I am thinking of and thankful and proud of myself for in this moment. I am also very proud of my cousin today for graduating. He graduated from Iowa State University! He has an engineering degree and he has found God! What an inspiration. I love my cousin and even though since we live a few hours away I have not been able to see him as often as I would like, I have always looked up to Jordan. Hes been an inspiration and I am proud of him. I still remember growing up and going to his hockey games! He was great at hockey. He is great at being a cousin. I miss him and wish I could be there.

Right Now:

I wish I could talk to the young man in my life but when I am a little down I try and not talk to too many others about it because I am not one to want to bring others down even though I know they would want to hear about it. I am simply a bit down today, if you read this and you pray, please do. I have been down about the time it will take to graduate. I guess I kinda always thought it would take four years, two at Normandale then transfer to the University of Minnesota. That is not the case. I will be taking a few more than three or four years at Normandale. I have yet to finish my generals, I am almost done with my Emphasis in Multicultural Studies, I have yet to finish with my Creative Writing AFA and yet to decide if I want an AFA in Art. So it will take time. I am also really quite awful at algebra and I need to take some in order to be a teacher. I kinda wanna teach at a high school. I wanna inspire students, be proud of them for being in school, encourage them to do their best, tell them how great they truly are and be an English teacher or a counselor at a high school. Yet it will take some time. I think right now though, I am okay with it taking time, life is not meant to be rushed and we are all at our own place in life. I will try and stop comparing myself to others, I find that my mother compared me to others kids. Told me what her co-workers said about me and it brought me down, because of it, I started comparing myself to everyone else and that made life a little more difficult. I have to say that if you compare yourself because your parents have compared you, stop... Please. Its not the way to live and it will only make you feel horrible. You are a miracle, you are fabulous, hard working, worth this life, given this life as a gift because you are an inspiration. I have to tell myself this too because I forget. You are also loved by a god so good! I am too, we all are. So please today, love yourself! Be thankful, be blessed, let this life be positive, be good and optimistic. Were all on our own path and it does not have to take four years. 

Inspiration of Saturday

Marvelous words.C:

"The things you take for granted someone else is praying for."

More beautiful words.C:

"When I look back on my life, I see pain, mistakes, and heart ache. When I look in the mirror, I see strength, learned lessons, and pride in myself."

Saturday Songs

Today is my day to take it easy.C:

I am blasting some 102.1, which if you do not know is country music.:P

K102 Website.C:

I love country music, I also love Gary Allan! They had my song on this morning, I was like, oh my gosh, gotta boogie to that, so I danced about the living room, leaping through the air like a graceful dancer.. Okay, maybe not, but it was graceful to me lol, I danced about, excited about life! Right? Pumped to be alive. I was like Gary Allans song Every Storm Runs Out of Rain! Now my other songs on! Hunter Hayes song Wanted!

"Every Storm (Runs Out Of Rain)"

I saw you standing in the middle of the thunder and lightning
I know you're feeling like you just can't win, but you're trying
It's hard to keep on keepin' on, when you're being pushed around
Don't even know which way is up, just keep spinning down, 'round, down…

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

So hold your head up and tell yourself that there's something more
Walk out that door
Go find a new rose, don't be afraid of the thorns
'Cause we all have thorns
Just put your feet up to the edge, put your face in the wind
And when you fall back down, keep on rememberin'

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna run out of pain
It's gonna run out of sting
It's gonna leave you alone
It's gonna set you free
Set you free

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna set you free,
It's gonna run out of pain,
It's gonna set you free

You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
It makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green, girl I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
So put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too
I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah I, wanna make you feel wanted
Anyone can tell you you're pretty
And you get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the makeup
And I wanna show you what I see tonight
When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips

I wanna make you feel wanted
I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
'Cause Baby I, wanna make you feel wanted
As good as you make me feel
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your fairy tales
Better than your best dreams
You're more than everything I need
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted
And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
and I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And Never let you forget it
Yeah I, wanna make you feel wanted
Baby I, wanna make you feel wanted
'Cause you'll always be wanted

Uplift

"You Raise Me Up"

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

After a song like the last I posted, I want to post what I would listen to after relating, a more uplifting song to put the step back into my walk.C: A song like this, "You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban. Honestly he was on the radio this morning and I love his voice! I cannot get over how amazing he is. I hope you enjoy this song, whoever you are reading this, I hope it brings you up. When I listen to this song I think of God. God raises me up.C: I also want to say I might re-post inspiring songs. Have a marvelous weekend and a lovely night.C:

Lifehouse

                                                                      

 "Broken" by Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time

(This relates to how I feel about how I dwell on tomorrow a lot more often then I should, and it reminds me it is another thing to pray about.)
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts

(Doubts are natural, we all have them and I do not think theres anything wrong with doubts in life yet also think positive too, think about all the positive things in our lives and try not to doubt as much.)

I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

(I believe everyone has things in their lives which have caused damage, they are things to be sensitive about yet talk about and let others know about and as time goes on to move on from and to learn the lesson God wanted to be learned to help grow in strength and help us with obstacles later in life.)
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

(Somtimes I let things get to me and I feel like I am falling apart because of those things. I think this will always be a part of my life but another part of my life will be bringing myself up, praying, and knowing Gods there. I love my friends who accept that sometimes I do overreact about things yet they know I do not blame them about things. I appreciate those who are in my life and knowing I tend to be down about some things and yet I am good in the end. Friends who encourage and say positive things and are sympathetic, they help a lot, friends who ask you to talk about things. I have a few of them in my life, we all react to troubles differently and I am helped the most by those who ask to talk about it and hear me out and offer help. I am lucky to have friends like this who also pray.)
With a broken heart that's still beating

(I think all our hearts are a little broken from friends who left, who changed, family whose passed, friends who have passed.)
In the pain, there is healing

(Healing is from ourselves, from friends, from God, from famliy.)
In your name I find meaning

(In Gods name.C:)
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

(Holding on to the good too and the fact that God loves me.)
I'm barely holdin' on to you

(God, sometimes I feel like I am falling away but then I know, Gods always there and always with me no matter what.)

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

If you are curious, I will finish this.C: Right now I am watching the ending of Pride and Prejudice which is adorable.:P (The one with Keira Knightley of course!) I love the picture, the person filming did a marvelous job. This movie always makes me smile. When I am down I find things which make me smile or take my mind off why I am down. Right now what is best for me, these are tips I suppose if you are ever down... 

• Cry about it. Let it out.
• Vent about it, write in a blog or in a diary, talk to God or a close friend or family member who will listen.
• Listen to songs which relate to the emotions.
• Make yourself smile, do something which makes you smile.
• Take your mind off the thing bothering you.
• Turn off my phone so I can focus on bringing myself back up, praying and simply knowing theres a lot of good and positive in this world and in this life, a lot to be thankful for and blessed about, a lot to appreciate.
• Do not go on Facebook because it tends to make one dwell.
• Just take a day or a moment in the day for yourself. Love yourself more, figure things you like about yourself.

That is all I can think of for now, bear with me.:P I wrote the above to show I am relating to the song in my way, my thoughts on the lyrics. I think we all translate songs differently for our different experiences I feel music does help though. Have a beautiful day or night or afternoon and if you need to talk about something bothering you, let me know I will give out my email. I will hear you out and or give advice, let me know the most helpful reaction and I will try and be there for you.<3 i="i">

Algebra

I am having a me night... I will admit, I am no good at Algebra and the simple fact makes me angry out of hurt, out of despair, out of self doubt and out of sadness. I have tried to learn Algebra yet the topic is increasingly difficult for me and it does have the ability to bring me so down I will cry... I am having a good cry tonight. I wish I was great at algebra in all honesty, I wish it came naturally but I doubt it will. I want to reach out to all those others who have extreme difficulty with algebra, you are by all means never alone. I hear you and I share this inability to excel at algebra. In our lives we will find that some things bring us down, an inability to productively do a subject is common. I will hear you out if you need to talk about this topic, ask and I will give you my email. I know it can be depressing and hard when a topic does not come easy. For me it stands in the way of my goals and it will take time to finish specific courses of this subject in order to be what I am considering, which is extremely stressful for me. Something I will pray for and I will pray for those of you out there with troubles in life like this. Lets give it to God because God has a wonderful plan. My tips on the matter are:

• Not looking at it with such despair as I have been looking at it and if you are then as you have been looking at it. You are not at fault for not understanding the topic you struggle with.
• Think positively, find some positive in this matter, there is good and know that with every step you take you have supporters in your life, keep them close, Gods loving you, friends who you can talk to about this topic, family.
• Look for the friends who offer you help with the topics you struggle with, there will be some in every batch, not those who do not offer to help, yet understand people might be busy and some will not know how to help, others will also not be great at the topic. 
• Look for helping places, classes to help you catch up with where you should be.
• Look for tutoring.
• Find books which explain the topic.
• Look online for websites which help.
• Find videos which explain.
• Pray, and ask others to pray.
• Ask how others learned, ask for tips.

There will be ways of getting through this, I promise, I myself have to see this too. Currently I have my phone out and tissue, crying tends to help when we are down, I feel a bit relieved about things and a bit uplifted yet I believe tomorrow I am going to continue bringing myself back up, gonna pray too. You can do this and so can I.

I Love This Song

True

http://allgroanup.com/adult/21-secrets-for-your-20s/
"21 Secrets for your 20's"

little treats for good friends

This card above from Papyrusonline.com, or Papyrus stores seems a good gift for a good friend.C:

C:

Love these cards!

Matthew West Moment... MWM.:D

for those who have been through tough times, couple songs

I found this song inspirational. Highly inspirational.

Gods always, always, always there.C:

Plus your not alone, there's many other girls who have been through this.

We stand together.

We can support one another. 

Life is truly beautiful.

Broken Girl - Matthew West.

She Cries Out - Kutless

Does Anybody Hear Her - Casting Crowns.

Stand in the Rain - Superchick

Little Miss - Sugarland

Stand Up - Sugarland

it is here, Saturday!

It is completely Saturday in the state of Minnesota... Seeing as though it is 10:27am... I am guessing it is Saturday all over the USA.:D Thus, Happy Saturday folks! I hope everyone's up and that most of you are already adventuring outside and having fun.C: I am going to call my dad in a little bit and head over there before going out to eat later with my grandparents and mother... Haha, well were going to a fish place right? I LOVE FISH! What? What? Yeah... Lol, fish is the stuff.C: Fish is seriously an awesome food. I could eat many different kinds... Well maybe not, yet I do love salmon, walleye... In the sea food category I do tend to indulge in shrimp, crab, lobster. All equals DELICIOUS. It needed to be capitalized. After hearing this, you can bet I also love sushi too... Love is in the air peoples. Sushi, yummy! Sea weed!! Yeah!! Haha. I always spell the place I am headed to wrong... I always thought it was McCormick and Schmidt, but it is not! I wanna spell not like this, "NAUGHT"... Just for accent purpose, gives it some flavor... I needs flavor.xD Hehe. Yet it is spelled properly like so... "Properlay" Can you imagine those guys in Pirates of the Caribean saying this, those guys who said, "Parlay" like that... Lol, they were so funny! I need to indulge in some Pirates of the Caribean... I do not even wanna indulge in the movie with anyone, just by my wonderful self and with God... Pirate time! Haha, yet for real... Anywho, you spell it like this lol, as I have gone far off the topic at hand... "McCormick and Schmicks" Lol!!! I LOVE the word, SCHMICK. Sounds so fun! Actually almost sounds like a diss, but I love it. It has so much more life than Schmidts. Though, you gotta admit they sound the same... Kinda? Right? They so do.xD Okay so now I need to have a fish moment...
Salmon:
Dun, dun, dun, dun, da, dee, da, dumdle, dum... BOOM:
LOL, I should post images of the actual fish. Yet... Haha, I was about to add, "yum, yam, yum, yeem, yum..." Then post a bunch of images of salmon fillets... Yeah... Salmon fillets... DELISH! Times like ten! Right? Yeah. Who's the main fish! Oh, salmon.:D Hehe, imagine that said in a bashful voice from the 1950's.:D Haha, epic!

That is the most inspirational salmon picture I have ever seen... Lol. As I posted it after I found it, I noticed the webcam thing, I was like, yes, I am swimming with salmon right now and I can definitely upload a picture of me with the salmon like I wish I could... Haha, nooooo. Lol. Someday! Sometime! Somewhere! Lots of some! Haha.C: 

Then of course there's this picture... Yeah. Had to do it. Sorry people. It had to happen. It was for the shock factor, fish, fillet! Yet honestly. It is not those fishes swimming in the first picture, none of us knew the salmon who is on the plate... Well maybe, but I apologize for my random, AHA moment. BOOM... Shackalacka... Salmon... FILLET.:D

So I am going here...

mccormick and schmicks

You can see the beautiful word... As on the webpage... I am thinking of the word in a dreamy speak.. Schmicks, oh, Schmicks... I do adore your spelling... Yes... Of course.C:

Now on a more positive note, not about salmons turning into a fillet, I have a song... I love. I actually just love this guy... He has an amazing voice, and inspirational songs.C:

You might love it. So listen when you are able to thoroughly enjoy his beautiful words and voice. He is SOOOOO Ah-mazing.:D Hehe.

Happy Saturday!:D

With love.

bed time

It's around oh, 10:31, at night. I am sitting at the living room dining table, it has a variety of leaves covering a green polka dotted cloth, next to me sits the hot measuring cup of tea I made myself, cooling as to not burn my tongue, against that is the small white tea cup I will sip it out of as I sit here, wet hair floating along my back, drying freely, my new diary sits atop a book I plan on jumping into, which sits atop all of the Thanksgiving cards I invested in. I am venting... I have decided to try and stop thinking about the future, tomorrow, the day after, five years from now, college, education, only focus on this day and the moment I am in. The future is tomorrow, today is my moment. I have decided just that.C: Of course I cannot just state that here on this blog and expect it to happen, I have to work towards changing my life. A life changing sort of day... It truly was though... First I woke up... I was tired, thus I rolled over and slept in. Then I... (Had to take a moment to pour some of the cinnamon smelling tea into the small white cup, I love tea.) Went to school... I forget my morning events but I went there and I arrived, I went to class and sat learning, about relationships from my Communications teacher, I love relationship information, maybe because I am in a relationship and all I wanna do is make his life amazing, happy, delightful, positive, optimistic, adventurous, I want him to feel like a freakin' prince.:D Yep, I am in love. Thats just part of my little old life. Another part of my life is the job I am after... At Godiva. Today I tried a new truffle, "Birthday Cake", which is delightful, with a sweet taste, like cookie dough with sugar on top and a cake taste... So good!

And another for good measure...

I am addicted, already, to this delightful truffle... For life! It is so good. I am not even joking. I tried it and I was amazed, it was great, I am sure how I ate it was not the regular way, I was walking with a giant Subway sandwich in my arm, like a football, and I dug into my Godiva bag and took a bite, my initial reaction was, "Thish ish goo." Which in I am eating speak, means, "This is good." It was good too! I took another bite upon the escalator. Delightful! It was a wonderful treat and you know what? I did not even count the calories because what is one mini truffle going to do? Let me just say this, nothing!

talking

Sometimes I am very guilty of saying the wrong thing, I will admit, I like to talk and right now, I am hurting... I took a while to get back to anyone reading this blog... I wanted to clear out the people from my Facebook... I wanted a break with time to think and freshly write new word in this blog, online. I am hurting bad right now... I say things and sometimes my mind is so cluttered I cannot even think it over long enough. This is loss. Death. Loss of an immediate family member, an unexpected passing. I woke up not this past, but the Sunday before... I woke and I learned the news... My uncle on my moms side, not uncle Steve, but uncle Tim, passed away. I was stunned, I had just woke and this news was sprung on me as I lay in bed about to wake up, tired, not all there, I remained in shock for a time. Shock. Still. Lifeless. Emotionless. "Cheerful". Statue. I remained. I was. I had no idea how to go about mourning my uncle. He was my uncle, the only one in Minnesota. He was nice to me. He was the only man in my life who offered to be there if anything went wrong, he said to call him one day, out of the blue and he jotted down his number. I feel like that made a big impact on my life, someone truly cared. I miss my uncle, more than I will let on to others. I have cried over it a bit, just melted down over it. Death is hard, it is final, because it feels final, it feels permanent and it feels like a major loss. Gone. Poof. No more. Right now in my home, there is loss, it surrounds me, my cat is gone, he was rather like a member of the family based on how long he had been in my life. I posted about him a while ago, I still miss him, so much. Right now I am crying over it again... My ole cat.:/ I even miss the smell of his litter box... I miss his fur being everywhere, I miss having cat hair on black clothing, I miss his sneezes, I miss his big ole eyes, I miss his purr, I miss petting his soft fur coat. I miss him following me around, I miss playing hide and go seek with him. I miss my cat so much. More than anyone can imagine who is in my life besides my dads parents who lost their little cat, Annie this year. I loved Annie too, grew up going to Iowa and playing with Annie. Yet Tommy, he was the cat I was able to be excited about seeing every time I came home. Now hes just a memory, a photograph. I miss him. Every single day, I miss not having him outside my door, not having him sneeze on me, not having him rub his ear on me. I miss him so much, and his little gaze, he was the most adorable cat.

I Cut My Bangs!

Me, outside, with bangs! I think I love them.xD

new finds

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Life is Golden

At least I believe it is, I am still getting used to my cat being gone, but life is still golden. In regards to pet loss, I keep expecting to see him running up the stairs, come over to my legs and rub his little soft ears on me. I keep expecting to see him fat, healthy and happy sunbathing next to the sliding glass door which leads to the porch. I miss hearing his loud meow's in the early morning hours. I miss him coming over and laying on the ground next to me while I do yoga in the basement. I miss my cat, Tommy. I miss him a lot. I know though that he is in a better place, heaven, with God.C: I talked to my grandma Mary about pet loss, their cat, Annie died this year too. She hung a picture of Annie downstairs, and a smaller one of Annie is among pictures of family. I am considering putting a picture of Tommy up in my room, I actually want to re-do my room... I think I should paint it... And find more pictures and pick out different lights. I want a change. Maybe some average Christmas like lights to go around my window, might paint my room a light or ocean blue, put up some positive quote pictures. Add some fun lights around, make my room more live-able.

Thankful

1. I am thankful for my amazing boyfriend. I think if any guy needs relationship advice my boyfriend, the awesome Devin would have great advice to give because he is the greatest boyfriend there ever was.C: He always is filled with complements, willing to work out misunderstanding's, he is always listening, very creative, fun to be around, silly in a great way, he has the best laugh I have ever heard, he is very kind, he helps people and he helps me, he gives me very fantastic advice, he is always great to see, he is the most handsome guy I have ever seen, he is open minded, willing to try new foods from different cultures, an explorer, he has an amazing personality.C: I like saying things about him, wonderful things because he is worth wonderful things! He is worth getting to know, listening to, doing little somethings for, making laugh, making happy.
2. I am thankful God loves me and is always there for me no matter what life brings in my path God is always helping me.
3. I am thankful to be alive!
4. I am thankful for the ability to talk, to hear, to taste, to feel, to have two hands, two feet, two arms, two legs.
5. I am thankful for my hair, and it being long and healthy and growing.
6. I am thankful for my family who loves me and are all amazing, unique, glorious, lovely just the way they are.
7. I am thankful for my friends.
8. I am thankful for my house.
9. I am thankful for the ability to go to school.

Link to an Amazing Poem

Very Cool

This Commercial I Kinda Liked

Closet Jumping

I really want to jump out of a closet with some major superhero music in the background wearing a flippin' backpack! I think that would be my moment... Or moment of the day. I might have to document my closet jumping, and use some editing to make it look heroic! Yes! I mean it all came to me when I saw a commercial of a guy jumping out of a door or something. It was beautiful! Beautified! I am going to try this. I have been inspired.

True

"Just be yourself, no one can compete with that."

Outside

Sun shines through the puffy white cloud cluster, stark white among sky blue. Glittering on the green leaves of a blowing tree, shining rays. Light breeze blows man made curtains, tickles leaves of a miniature pink vine. Leaves trickle along dark smooth paths, Halloween, orange and yellow fallen from above on the darkness. Piles, fall piles of burnt orange, old yellow, nobody leaps on small piles.

In a Moment

I want to appreciate my friends right now who have been a part of this week so far. I have to say Teresa is a great friend of mine and I love her for being the kind person she is. I love doing little things for her, writing her thankyous for all the great things she does and buying her little healthy smoothies and waters. I have to say she is an amazing young woman and she is going somewhere in life. She is going to be someone very important. All of my friends will be someone important. Why? Because in my eyes where ever they choose to end up, they will still be important and a friend, and my friends are very important people.C: Teresa also makes amazing home made pizza. Absolutely great pizza! Encourages me to make my own pizza. I want to appreciate Mariah, because she called me about life and checked in the other day about how I was doing regarding the passing of my cat. That meant a lot, texts here and there, and phone calls they mean so much when you are going through a tough time. I wanna thank my friend Ben for being my friend Ben. He is great and even though he is not here in Minnesota I have to say nothing will effect our friendship. I want to thank Devin for texting me every morning, those morning texts brighten my days and make me smile. I love how he always texts me asking to talk at night too. He is an amazing guy! He sends long replys to my messages and he sends picture messages on Facebook that make my days. He is so wonderful. Doing all these little things. I appreciate it all so much and just writing about it, thanking him in thankyous, in messages, in person and in text, and over the phone is not enough, I truly appreciate him and all the wonderful things he does, those little picture messages are the greatest! I always look forward to them and those morning texts and those night texts asking to chit chat. The little things are the big things, they mean so much. So, so much and I appreciate them and do notice them every time. I am so happy to have him as a boyfriend.C: I am so happy about this life I live. I am happy about the person I am today and about the future. Everything is good. He does not know it but I already bought him this awesome Halloween card.:P I do not want anything in return though, from him. I think that the purpose of me buying a card is because I want to and because I like doing a little something. He does not owe me and I will not be upset without a card from him. I give not to get, I give to give. I like doing for others, helping, giving. It makes me happy and it is not people pleasing if you enjoy doing for others. It is your reality and it is an unselfish act of showing you appreciate someone, everyone has their way of being and this is mine. I am so thankful though for real, for him in my life, he invited me to join him to this cool Comic event. I went last year and it was exciting because it was different and I cannot wait to go with him! I bet it will be this adventure. I always have fun with him, doing whatever we do. I still remember one day we went owntown and it was raining this day, so I had my rain jacket and we explored, ending up having some pho, chocolate muffin, and a smoothie all from different vendors we shared it all and laughed about a cook book we were paging through. In then end we swapped rain jackets and ran through the rain to the car. We later decided to head to this free museum and explore! Only to find a ballroom like room and we danced in it, we later spun around under these strands of yarn hanging in a circle and found a secret basement with a chess game out, so we played some chess and a little hide and seek in the museum and a little chasing around, then ran through the rain and the park outside the museum in the rain. It was a wonderful day. I have to say I will never forget it.C:

Where we found the pho! (A type of soup.)

We found the chocolate muffin here.C:

We found the cookbook we paged through here.:P

I was too afraid to learn too close, talk about fear of heights.xD Haha.

The amazing large halls!:D

Tuesday

I am working on some Psychology of Women homework. The TV shows I am going to research and write a four page paper on are chosen I believe.:P I think this is going to be an interesting paper, it has been an interesting assignment and I am glad to be able to start it! I also have a, "This I Believe" speech due soon and I am excited about it! I love speeches. I know it might sound really weird, but I LOVE speeches or presentations. They are pretty fun! I am excited.C: I am also excited about sending my good friend Ben a letter! He is away now but I think the fact that I can write him is super new and super exciting. I love writing and why not? I wrote him all about life here, and thus I cannot wait to send it out and keep up on my writing to Ben. Now to the big question... Should I buy Halloween cards from Papyrus or make my own? I have been debating! I am unsure.xD I mean I do love Papyrus.

I am so tempted for some reason. Papyrus knows how to get me in their clutches of card appreciation.:P Yet I think I might start with a certain good friend of mine, her birthday is coming up and I think I might just make her a card! I am thinking about being relatively creative and I am not specifically going to say what I am going to do but I intend to make her card quite unique.C: Made kinda just for her. I suppose it should be a really fun project. Creativity is alive in this world and when we can create our own cards that is a great thing. Though the envelope might be difficult. I will find a way with it.

thisibelieve.org

For my class I am writing a, "This I Believe" essay and we are to listen to a few essays on ThisIbelieve.org. Heres a few I liked:
The Act of Giving Thanks
 Happy Talk

Blessed

On a side note, I am so blessed. I have an amazing boyfriend. Yes, I have mentioned this before, but I am one of those girls who likes mentioning him because he is worth mentioning even as a side note.C: He brought over my iPod! I told him he completely did not have to, I told him to have a him day, do whatever his heart desired and then he decided to bring over my iPod, which is so kind, I am very thankful to have such an amazing guy as part of my life! Honestly, I ended up writing him a thank you letter and offering to buy him lunch, since he had already eaten, I told him, rain check. I intend to buy him lunch for being so kind as to bring over my iPod. I am excited to do something for him, even something as simple as buying him lunch. I am excited and I am blessed to be able to buy him lunch and to write him a thank you. Life is so wonderful. Plus he sends these amazing picture words of positive to me and they are the best messages ever! He is the best boyfriend ever.C: He is kind, I trust him, he is amazing, exciting, brilliant, creative, fun, loving, hilarious, quite an optimistic guy, positive, good, not a procrastinator, neat, gosh, so much more but he is the greatest, best, most amazing boyfriend ever.C:

Books, I Want to Read Them

This is a list I made for myself to recall books I want to read.C:

The Book of Awesome

God Never Blinks

The Nine Rooms of Happiness

The Gifts of Imperfection

The Book of Awakening

When God Stopped Keeping Score

Monday

When I write in a blog, sometimes I become a little OCD about how I begin and write in the entry. I think each post should be perfect. I realize while I am writing, nothing is perfect, then continue on and make the post. With writing, there is no perfection, each persons story is not going to be perfect because I am hearing someones story, their words, their life. No ones life is perfect. No matter how perfect I might think their day to day life is, it is never perfect. That is my reality, nobody is ever going to be perfect so I cannot look at someone and say, they have it great, even though I do tend to do this at times. Their life is not perfect. They have lived through something. If you are reading this and you assume I have a perfect life? I don't and I really hope you do not assume I do have a perfect life. Trust me, there's struggles. I'm not perfect, I don't want to be perfect, but I also do not want to have anyone else's life. I enjoy waking up as the person I am, Kaitlyn. That is perfectly fine with me.C: I may not have the best life in the world, but guess what? I like it. So, on another note, it is fall, mid/late September and I wanted to post a few images I found and liked of this beautiful season...

Another thing I wanted to make sure I said, right now I am really hurting about the passing of my dearest cat, Tommy so there might be a little talking about how I feel in regards to him being no longer here. Why? I think personally there is no set amount of time you have to mourn a pets passing, you do not have to stop mourning after a year, you can still be a little tender about the topic. I know right now, my cat passed just this Saturday and I am really tender about it. I saw him a few hours before he died. His eye was clouding up on one side and he could not lift his little head, and I felt tremendous pain because I knew that he would die that night. I could not leave my room because I did not want to see the life leave my cat. I patted him on the head softly and tried to sleep. I wish I had stayed out there with him. I just could not because it was so hard for me, my cat dying I spent most of my life playing hide and seek with him, and those memories, those happier memories with Tommy are replaced with the last memories, but I am going to try and remember the good memories because I want those to be the memories which stick with me. He was and always will be the best cat I have ever met and loved. He is in heaven now and has no more pain and I believe he is with God. Being loved and happy, playing with cat nip and eating fish and drinking fresh water. He is in a better place but I will always remember him being so friendly to everyone, having a loud cheerful meow, how he would run around like a crazy cat, how he would follow me around and always want to be around me. He was my best friend. He was loved and he was well liked, many people said he was the kindest cat they had ever met.  I am thankful to God for letting me be the proud owner of such a lively, amazing cat.C: He was a blessing I am always going to be thankful for having as a part of my life.