I Cut My Bangs!

Me, outside, with bangs! I think I love them.xD

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Life is Golden

At least I believe it is, I am still getting used to my cat being gone, but life is still golden. In regards to pet loss, I keep expecting to see him running up the stairs, come over to my legs and rub his little soft ears on me. I keep expecting to see him fat, healthy and happy sunbathing next to the sliding glass door which leads to the porch. I miss hearing his loud meow's in the early morning hours. I miss him coming over and laying on the ground next to me while I do yoga in the basement. I miss my cat, Tommy. I miss him a lot. I know though that he is in a better place, heaven, with God.C: I talked to my grandma Mary about pet loss, their cat, Annie died this year too. She hung a picture of Annie downstairs, and a smaller one of Annie is among pictures of family. I am considering putting a picture of Tommy up in my room, I actually want to re-do my room... I think I should paint it... And find more pictures and pick out different lights. I want a change. Maybe some average Christmas like lights to go around my window, might paint my room a light or ocean blue, put up some positive quote pictures. Add some fun lights around, make my room more live-able.

Thankful

1. I am thankful for my amazing boyfriend. I think if any guy needs relationship advice my boyfriend, the awesome Devin would have great advice to give because he is the greatest boyfriend there ever was.C: He always is filled with complements, willing to work out misunderstanding's, he is always listening, very creative, fun to be around, silly in a great way, he has the best laugh I have ever heard, he is very kind, he helps people and he helps me, he gives me very fantastic advice, he is always great to see, he is the most handsome guy I have ever seen, he is open minded, willing to try new foods from different cultures, an explorer, he has an amazing personality.C: I like saying things about him, wonderful things because he is worth wonderful things! He is worth getting to know, listening to, doing little somethings for, making laugh, making happy.
2. I am thankful God loves me and is always there for me no matter what life brings in my path God is always helping me.
3. I am thankful to be alive!
4. I am thankful for the ability to talk, to hear, to taste, to feel, to have two hands, two feet, two arms, two legs.
5. I am thankful for my hair, and it being long and healthy and growing.
6. I am thankful for my family who loves me and are all amazing, unique, glorious, lovely just the way they are.
7. I am thankful for my friends.
8. I am thankful for my house.
9. I am thankful for the ability to go to school.

Link to an Amazing Poem

Very Cool

This Commercial I Kinda Liked

Closet Jumping

I really want to jump out of a closet with some major superhero music in the background wearing a flippin' backpack! I think that would be my moment... Or moment of the day. I might have to document my closet jumping, and use some editing to make it look heroic! Yes! I mean it all came to me when I saw a commercial of a guy jumping out of a door or something. It was beautiful! Beautified! I am going to try this. I have been inspired.

True

"Just be yourself, no one can compete with that."

Outside

Sun shines through the puffy white cloud cluster, stark white among sky blue. Glittering on the green leaves of a blowing tree, shining rays. Light breeze blows man made curtains, tickles leaves of a miniature pink vine. Leaves trickle along dark smooth paths, Halloween, orange and yellow fallen from above on the darkness. Piles, fall piles of burnt orange, old yellow, nobody leaps on small piles.

In a Moment

I want to appreciate my friends right now who have been a part of this week so far. I have to say Teresa is a great friend of mine and I love her for being the kind person she is. I love doing little things for her, writing her thankyous for all the great things she does and buying her little healthy smoothies and waters. I have to say she is an amazing young woman and she is going somewhere in life. She is going to be someone very important. All of my friends will be someone important. Why? Because in my eyes where ever they choose to end up, they will still be important and a friend, and my friends are very important people.C: Teresa also makes amazing home made pizza. Absolutely great pizza! Encourages me to make my own pizza. I want to appreciate Mariah, because she called me about life and checked in the other day about how I was doing regarding the passing of my cat. That meant a lot, texts here and there, and phone calls they mean so much when you are going through a tough time. I wanna thank my friend Ben for being my friend Ben. He is great and even though he is not here in Minnesota I have to say nothing will effect our friendship. I want to thank Devin for texting me every morning, those morning texts brighten my days and make me smile. I love how he always texts me asking to talk at night too. He is an amazing guy! He sends long replys to my messages and he sends picture messages on Facebook that make my days. He is so wonderful. Doing all these little things. I appreciate it all so much and just writing about it, thanking him in thankyous, in messages, in person and in text, and over the phone is not enough, I truly appreciate him and all the wonderful things he does, those little picture messages are the greatest! I always look forward to them and those morning texts and those night texts asking to chit chat. The little things are the big things, they mean so much. So, so much and I appreciate them and do notice them every time. I am so happy to have him as a boyfriend.C: I am so happy about this life I live. I am happy about the person I am today and about the future. Everything is good. He does not know it but I already bought him this awesome Halloween card.:P I do not want anything in return though, from him. I think that the purpose of me buying a card is because I want to and because I like doing a little something. He does not owe me and I will not be upset without a card from him. I give not to get, I give to give. I like doing for others, helping, giving. It makes me happy and it is not people pleasing if you enjoy doing for others. It is your reality and it is an unselfish act of showing you appreciate someone, everyone has their way of being and this is mine. I am so thankful though for real, for him in my life, he invited me to join him to this cool Comic event. I went last year and it was exciting because it was different and I cannot wait to go with him! I bet it will be this adventure. I always have fun with him, doing whatever we do. I still remember one day we went owntown and it was raining this day, so I had my rain jacket and we explored, ending up having some pho, chocolate muffin, and a smoothie all from different vendors we shared it all and laughed about a cook book we were paging through. In then end we swapped rain jackets and ran through the rain to the car. We later decided to head to this free museum and explore! Only to find a ballroom like room and we danced in it, we later spun around under these strands of yarn hanging in a circle and found a secret basement with a chess game out, so we played some chess and a little hide and seek in the museum and a little chasing around, then ran through the rain and the park outside the museum in the rain. It was a wonderful day. I have to say I will never forget it.C:

Where we found the pho! (A type of soup.)

We found the chocolate muffin here.C:

We found the cookbook we paged through here.:P

I was too afraid to learn too close, talk about fear of heights.xD Haha.

The amazing large halls!:D

Tuesday

I am working on some Psychology of Women homework. The TV shows I am going to research and write a four page paper on are chosen I believe.:P I think this is going to be an interesting paper, it has been an interesting assignment and I am glad to be able to start it! I also have a, "This I Believe" speech due soon and I am excited about it! I love speeches. I know it might sound really weird, but I LOVE speeches or presentations. They are pretty fun! I am excited.C: I am also excited about sending my good friend Ben a letter! He is away now but I think the fact that I can write him is super new and super exciting. I love writing and why not? I wrote him all about life here, and thus I cannot wait to send it out and keep up on my writing to Ben. Now to the big question... Should I buy Halloween cards from Papyrus or make my own? I have been debating! I am unsure.xD I mean I do love Papyrus.

I am so tempted for some reason. Papyrus knows how to get me in their clutches of card appreciation.:P Yet I think I might start with a certain good friend of mine, her birthday is coming up and I think I might just make her a card! I am thinking about being relatively creative and I am not specifically going to say what I am going to do but I intend to make her card quite unique.C: Made kinda just for her. I suppose it should be a really fun project. Creativity is alive in this world and when we can create our own cards that is a great thing. Though the envelope might be difficult. I will find a way with it.

thisibelieve.org

For my class I am writing a, "This I Believe" essay and we are to listen to a few essays on ThisIbelieve.org. Heres a few I liked:
The Act of Giving Thanks
 Happy Talk

Blessed

On a side note, I am so blessed. I have an amazing boyfriend. Yes, I have mentioned this before, but I am one of those girls who likes mentioning him because he is worth mentioning even as a side note.C: He brought over my iPod! I told him he completely did not have to, I told him to have a him day, do whatever his heart desired and then he decided to bring over my iPod, which is so kind, I am very thankful to have such an amazing guy as part of my life! Honestly, I ended up writing him a thank you letter and offering to buy him lunch, since he had already eaten, I told him, rain check. I intend to buy him lunch for being so kind as to bring over my iPod. I am excited to do something for him, even something as simple as buying him lunch. I am excited and I am blessed to be able to buy him lunch and to write him a thank you. Life is so wonderful. Plus he sends these amazing picture words of positive to me and they are the best messages ever! He is the best boyfriend ever.C: He is kind, I trust him, he is amazing, exciting, brilliant, creative, fun, loving, hilarious, quite an optimistic guy, positive, good, not a procrastinator, neat, gosh, so much more but he is the greatest, best, most amazing boyfriend ever.C:

Books, I Want to Read Them

This is a list I made for myself to recall books I want to read.C:

The Book of Awesome

God Never Blinks

The Nine Rooms of Happiness

The Gifts of Imperfection

The Book of Awakening

When God Stopped Keeping Score

Monday

When I write in a blog, sometimes I become a little OCD about how I begin and write in the entry. I think each post should be perfect. I realize while I am writing, nothing is perfect, then continue on and make the post. With writing, there is no perfection, each persons story is not going to be perfect because I am hearing someones story, their words, their life. No ones life is perfect. No matter how perfect I might think their day to day life is, it is never perfect. That is my reality, nobody is ever going to be perfect so I cannot look at someone and say, they have it great, even though I do tend to do this at times. Their life is not perfect. They have lived through something. If you are reading this and you assume I have a perfect life? I don't and I really hope you do not assume I do have a perfect life. Trust me, there's struggles. I'm not perfect, I don't want to be perfect, but I also do not want to have anyone else's life. I enjoy waking up as the person I am, Kaitlyn. That is perfectly fine with me.C: I may not have the best life in the world, but guess what? I like it. So, on another note, it is fall, mid/late September and I wanted to post a few images I found and liked of this beautiful season...

Another thing I wanted to make sure I said, right now I am really hurting about the passing of my dearest cat, Tommy so there might be a little talking about how I feel in regards to him being no longer here. Why? I think personally there is no set amount of time you have to mourn a pets passing, you do not have to stop mourning after a year, you can still be a little tender about the topic. I know right now, my cat passed just this Saturday and I am really tender about it. I saw him a few hours before he died. His eye was clouding up on one side and he could not lift his little head, and I felt tremendous pain because I knew that he would die that night. I could not leave my room because I did not want to see the life leave my cat. I patted him on the head softly and tried to sleep. I wish I had stayed out there with him. I just could not because it was so hard for me, my cat dying I spent most of my life playing hide and seek with him, and those memories, those happier memories with Tommy are replaced with the last memories, but I am going to try and remember the good memories because I want those to be the memories which stick with me. He was and always will be the best cat I have ever met and loved. He is in heaven now and has no more pain and I believe he is with God. Being loved and happy, playing with cat nip and eating fish and drinking fresh water. He is in a better place but I will always remember him being so friendly to everyone, having a loud cheerful meow, how he would run around like a crazy cat, how he would follow me around and always want to be around me. He was my best friend. He was loved and he was well liked, many people said he was the kindest cat they had ever met.  I am thankful to God for letting me be the proud owner of such a lively, amazing cat.C: He was a blessing I am always going to be thankful for having as a part of my life.

Random Ranting

Today I woke up and I looked. I looked for my cat. I looked by the window next to the sliding glass door, he wasn't there. I looked by the sliding glass door upstairs, he was not there, I looked outside my door, not there. I think the hardest part is that I really want him to be there again, like his passing was just a nightmare and I am awake and hes back, but he is not back and he is not coming back. I miss my cat so much, every day. I wish I could play hide and seek with him just one more time, rub his ears again, see him meow loudly again. I will never forget my cat, and honestly I will always miss him, a part of me will always want to see him again. I loved my cat and there will never be any cat just like Tommy. I know hes in a better place, I believe he is with God but right now I want my cat with me. I miss him, so much.

Climbing

Life is going to throw rocks at you, or put barriers in your path or push you backwards. Life is tough, but God is tougher and you are beautiful, or if you are a guy and you are reading this, you are freakin' handsome. You got this! Whatever this is, you got it! You can get on through it, your strong and your capable because you are a shining light. I believe in you, and God believes in you and you can do it.C: Right now I am falling apart. I am tripping over stones in my path, breaking and making stacks of tissues in my overflowing garbage why? Because I'll admit it, I am sad and I have every right to be a little sad right now, my cat just died and I am sad. Yet I will get through this and you will get through hatever barrier is in your life or loss came upon you. Because life gets better, life is meant to be good and your life is good. Trust me. I wanna cheer you on and be another person in your life saying you are amazing, you got this and you will get through because I wanna motivate you to motivate yourself and get through this. Whatever this is.

A Hard Day Turned Amazing

Honestly, today was really hard to get through because my best friend, my cat, Tommy whom has been a part of my life for most of it and being an only child, hes always been there for me. He passed on to a better place, heaven, but its hard not having him here with me. Yet today, my amazing boyfriend was here, I told him he completely did not have to hangout with me at all today. I told him you know I have other options you can do your thing, I mean I realize circumstances have changed and I do not want you feeling like since my cat passed you have to be here for me or hangout with me. Yet he wanted to hangout anyways. Him being the amazing guy he is. I decided since he was talking about frosting and cupcakes, to buy him a big old cupcake! I found a vanilla frosting one which was vanilla and then later sampled a cinnamon pretzel and bought him one of those because it was so good and I just had to get him one too.xD So then I made sure to treat him when he came to hangout with a vanilla cupcake and a cinnamon pretzel.C: Then off we went to his signing! Which was exciting. I was able to wait in line with him at a really cool mall! Then take a picture of him with this Twins player! A real Twins player, and the picture turned out great. Then we adventured to one of his favorite stores. I had a great time looking at all these cool photos at Deck the Walls with him. He has great taste in art! Just saying. I also love his smile and hearing him talk about things. Hes entertaining and fun to be around. We then decided to adventure, we spent the rest of the day adventuring. He was there with me and honestly, I love his laugh, I love his smile, I love his eyes when they light up, I love his sense of humor, I love his personality, I love his taste in music and how he sings and dances to music, I love how he truly cares about his family. I love so much about him as a person and how he respects people. Theres so much more and how he talks about journeys he goes on to find certain things. Hes a great, great, great guy and the best boyfriend there is.C:

Tommy

Tommy was my best friend. For many years, as a kid, my parents worked, and so I would have Tommy. We would run around the house, he would have to find me, because I would be quick and I would find miraculous hiding places. He always would. He would always find me, he was so smart, Tommy was. One time my mom, Reggie and I went for a walk around the neighborhood, I remember because I brought Tommy, he always had to stay inside so I carried him the entire way. He was my best friend, and I wanted him to see the great outdoors. My arms were hurting but I carried him and made sure he saw the path we all took. I remember his fur on his ears, it was always so soft and I remember when I went to South Dakota and a man once told me cats like to be rubbed behind their little soft ears and so I rubbed his little ears. I remember always smiling about his white whiskers, he had some above his eyes too and I thought they were the cutest little whiskers. I remember how his eyes glowed, and I found him extraordinary. I remember how he would meow, quite loudly. Towards the end he would sneeze and it still was some loud noise and I could still notice he was there. He was noisy, even on the day we found and took him in, a neighborhood stray, we gave him milk and later a home after taking him to the vet to be examined. I remember how he would always get my black clothing covered in fur. How he would roll around and allow me to pet his little belly and never bite. He  would go up to strangers and rub against them and be as friendly as can be. I recall he ran away one night and the next morning he was on the porch waiting to get in, he'd always come back. I did not know if it was love or what, but he would always come back.He got loose one day too when I was pushing hime around in a wagon, I wanted to bring him around the house we used to live in and have him a tour, he jumped off and ran into the backyard and went for the door, he always knew where the door, the garage, or the porch was in order to inform the family he wanted to come back in. I remember how he would hit Reggie playfully as Reggie went outside, and how he would lounge in the sun. I remember how he would always be around me when I was home. How creative he was about hiding spots, he could fit in the tiniest little places. He was my best friend, Tommy. I know right now I don't want to let anyone know quite yet I have a few people in my life experiencing amazing days and I will not dampen those days for them. I am going to get through this, maybe invest in a few more books, I know there will not be another friend every time I come home to sneeze or meow but the memories of what an amazing friend he was will last for the rest of my life.

"God's finger touched him, and he slept."

"It is a fearful thing to love what death can touch."

"All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle."

Some Tunes I Love

I really like finding new music. I guess because I like a good beat. Maybe. Or maybe a fresh new tune.C:

Sneaker Pimps - 6 Underground

Crystal Castles - Not In Love ft Robert Smith of The Cure

Depeche Mode - Enjoy the Silence

Coconut Records - West Coast

My Boyfriend

I like him.C: I do. I like my boyfriend. I think writing about the fact, the very simple fact that I do like him should be something I shall try and do relatively often. More often than not often. Why? I want him to if he sees my blog feel more appreciated than how appreciated I hope he already feels. He is kind, caring, funny, exciting, a good listener, goofy, athletic, open minded, open to trying new things, relaxed, motivating, helpful, genuine, generous, creative, smart, important, amazing, incredible, nice, sweet, handsome, good. There is so, so, so much more I can say I should add in here about him. Yet I like to try and find new words to call him  like fantastic, incredible, stellar, groovy, rad, intelligent, smart, nifty, great, good, nice, magnificent, cool, super, superb, spectacular, special, fabulous, awesome, amazing, lovely, terrific, exciting, excellent... Honestly these words in my opinion do describe him. Why? Because I say them to him all the time, because he IS that great. Do I mean them every time I say them to him? Yes. What I want out of this relationship is for him to feel appreciated every moment, to feel cherished, to feel cared for, for him to build his confidence, to cheer him on in life, to listen when he needs me to, to support him in his views and ideas, to motivate him to be the best he can be, to inspire him for the better when hes having an off day to send that positive inspiration, to put smiles on his face, to help him laugh randomly, to complement him always and often, to give him little nothings here and there and do little things for him, I want to make him happy in this relationship so I want to be the best girlfriend I can be. Why? Because I like him and it makes me happy doing things to make him happy. I am blessed to have such an amazing guy in my life and I am thankful, hes the best boyfriend there is.C:

The Happiness Project

I just started on this book, and I am really excited to learn from it. I believe it will have ideas about life and about living happily every day. I am thankful for finding it and excited to start in on it.C: 

Beautiful

Magnets Motivation

Ever laid eyes on these motivational magnets? These, being the magnets at Barnes and Noble with motivational quotes and sayings, the ones at The Afternoon in the Mall of America with words of wisdom... I happen to love them! I have bought a few for family and friends. They look a little like this:

See? I like these quotes and I hope the people I have given such quotes to love them too.

Monday Night, Reported by Kaitlyn

I am currently sitting, casually at the dining table with Devin, for the record, Devin's my amazing boyfriend. He's right there, "<" And he does not even know I am blogging about him right now, which is so adorable. I think its cute how I totally just made an arrow pointing at him, hes sitting at the head of the table on that end and I am sitting on this side of the table to his right. Facing the window, hes facing the other head to the table, working on his homework. I was working on mine too. We scheduled a study date.C: Randomly, really, and now he is here, studying, I wanted to make sure he finished his homework, so I am taking a mini break from mine and blogging about life, which is something I love to do. Hes really cute, intently studying. Earlier today I had no idea we would randomly be hanging out... That is the honest truth, but I had bought him this small bottle of organic chocolate milk, because he likes chocolate milk and given it to him upon arrival along with a few peanuts to munch on. I like doing little things for Devin because I enjoy making him smile or making him happy, and to be honest, when we hangout it is very relaxed, were both always saying we want to do whatever the other person wants to do. I think hes the best guy I could have as a boyfriend. Yet I did not post this simply to dish about how amazing it is and calm, and comfortable to hangout with Devin. I wrote this to blog about these two stores I have found and have decided that I am in love with. One is Patina which is in Minneapolis. I have to share some cool things I found there. Right now I am just going to post some festive fall things, because it is not yet October, yet in October I might post some things you can find at different stores relating to Halloween because that is a big holiday in America in October. November I might post fun things you can find regarding Thanksgiving, December, fun things regarding Christmas, then fun things regarding New Years. In February stuff about Valentines, in March stuff about St Pattys, in April stuff about Easter, in July stuff about the fourth.:P I have decided, among my usual postings.C:
Thus Fall items Devin and I found quite catchy from Patina:

This song!

My Rest of 2012 Goals

I suppose I just want to list them off... My goals that is, I like making lists. I like deciding what things I want to accomplish in a certain given time and stating what I would like to make my goals, given I said, rest of 2012, I have the rest of this month, October, November and December for the goals I decide to list which is a semi short term time length, though anything can happen in this time, thus I want to complete these goals.
1. Lose a few pounds, mainly getting rid of fat and building muscle.
2. Learn at least fifty new words in Russian.
3. Do well in my Fall 2012 classes, in other words study often.
4. Become better at volleyball, practice when possible!
5. Go to the gym, Lifetime, as often as possible.
6. Read!
7. Pray daily.
8. Blog!
9. Appreciate friends, family, boyfriend.
10. Go on adventures and explore.C:

Love this

Love this singer!

Even singing in English, her voice, so beautiful.C:

Amazing Goof

"Amazing goof" refers to the amazing guy I am in a relationship with. I will not post anything negative about my boyfriend. He's not a bad guy and thus there's nothing negative to say about him, if you are looking for some sort of rude document about him, this is not the place, I am not the type of girlfriend who posts horrible things about my boyfriend. We get along and we laugh, we have a fun relationship.I have to say I love talking to him because he has these gestures he does with his hands when describing something, and I do too, but he does and it makes him so exciting to listen to. It is entertaining and it usually makes me smile or want to smile or giggle because it makes me happy that I have met an exciting guy who uses hand gestures to describe something. That is the only intimate detail I am going to share, because I have to let him know in the first place that I posted something about us and him. Anyways, I have to say, I like doing little nothings for him, I found a coupon for Papa Murphy's pizza, a six dollar large pizza, and I nabbed it for him, I am planning on giving it to him when I see him next. As well as another six dollar pizza coupon for Dominoes Pizza. I guess because when I see pizza coupons I think of him because he likes pizza. I think it is great that he likes a certain food, pizza, and was willing to let me know. He is simply wonderful. I have to say, I wanna give him the coupons because I know he likes pizza and he might be able to use them, why else did I do this? Because I wanna see him smile and let him know I was thinking of him, that he is on my mind and that I remembered he likes pizza. I do not want anything in return. I just want him to be happy and if he is craving Papa Murphys or Dominoes or pizza in general and not the frozen kind, then he can purchase a low costing pizza with the coupons. If not, oh well, I will not be upset if he does not use the coupons, why? Because I like him, because I am not the type to be upset with him about a silly matter. He is a great guy, and me being upset with him? Why? You know, there's no reason to be. He is great. I want to be able to post things about how great he is, comfortably, I will likely mention this post to him and see if all is well and if it passes then all is good if not, I shall delete it. Yet my guy? He is great.C:

I Love Her Voice!

My Evening

My amazing brother. He is the best step brother one could have honestly! He is so smart and has a great sense of humor. I appreciate him being a part of my life.C: The image holds sour cream and I used it with my golubtsy (cabbage rolls).

My plate of Olya's golubtsy and sour cream with rye bread.

Kholodets. Yummy!C:

Giant delicious crepe.

And to finish off the meal, tea.C: