Random Ranting

Today I woke up and I looked. I looked for my cat. I looked by the window next to the sliding glass door, he wasn't there. I looked by the sliding glass door upstairs, he was not there, I looked outside my door, not there. I think the hardest part is that I really want him to be there again, like his passing was just a nightmare and I am awake and hes back, but he is not back and he is not coming back. I miss my cat so much, every day. I wish I could play hide and seek with him just one more time, rub his ears again, see him meow loudly again. I will never forget my cat, and honestly I will always miss him, a part of me will always want to see him again. I loved my cat and there will never be any cat just like Tommy. I know hes in a better place, I believe he is with God but right now I want my cat with me. I miss him, so much.