Monday

When I write in a blog, sometimes I become a little OCD about how I begin and write in the entry. I think each post should be perfect. I realize while I am writing, nothing is perfect, then continue on and make the post. With writing, there is no perfection, each persons story is not going to be perfect because I am hearing someones story, their words, their life. No ones life is perfect. No matter how perfect I might think their day to day life is, it is never perfect. That is my reality, nobody is ever going to be perfect so I cannot look at someone and say, they have it great, even though I do tend to do this at times. Their life is not perfect. They have lived through something. If you are reading this and you assume I have a perfect life? I don't and I really hope you do not assume I do have a perfect life. Trust me, there's struggles. I'm not perfect, I don't want to be perfect, but I also do not want to have anyone else's life. I enjoy waking up as the person I am, Kaitlyn. That is perfectly fine with me.C: I may not have the best life in the world, but guess what? I like it. So, on another note, it is fall, mid/late September and I wanted to post a few images I found and liked of this beautiful season...

Another thing I wanted to make sure I said, right now I am really hurting about the passing of my dearest cat, Tommy so there might be a little talking about how I feel in regards to him being no longer here. Why? I think personally there is no set amount of time you have to mourn a pets passing, you do not have to stop mourning after a year, you can still be a little tender about the topic. I know right now, my cat passed just this Saturday and I am really tender about it. I saw him a few hours before he died. His eye was clouding up on one side and he could not lift his little head, and I felt tremendous pain because I knew that he would die that night. I could not leave my room because I did not want to see the life leave my cat. I patted him on the head softly and tried to sleep. I wish I had stayed out there with him. I just could not because it was so hard for me, my cat dying I spent most of my life playing hide and seek with him, and those memories, those happier memories with Tommy are replaced with the last memories, but I am going to try and remember the good memories because I want those to be the memories which stick with me. He was and always will be the best cat I have ever met and loved. He is in heaven now and has no more pain and I believe he is with God. Being loved and happy, playing with cat nip and eating fish and drinking fresh water. He is in a better place but I will always remember him being so friendly to everyone, having a loud cheerful meow, how he would run around like a crazy cat, how he would follow me around and always want to be around me. He was my best friend. He was loved and he was well liked, many people said he was the kindest cat they had ever met.  I am thankful to God for letting me be the proud owner of such a lively, amazing cat.C: He was a blessing I am always going to be thankful for having as a part of my life.